To catch you up - I'm not pregnant yet. At least I don't think I am. My body is freaking out. Last week at the doctor's office my doc told me that I'm not ovulating. This week, I am now 10 days late for my period. After the doc told me that, I didn't want to take a pregnancy test because I don't want to tease myself, but this is getting ridiculous. I plan on buying one today. Depending on the outcome, I'll keep you posted (no pun intended.)
Things have been pretty decent on the home front. Ryan and I are dealing with life. His back surgery will be soon hopefully. He's pretty debilitated right now from pain. It's been a pretty rough time to be honest. Obviously for him, but also for me in a very different way. It's very hard to see someone you love hurting like that. We'll get though it, I know we will. And we will be stronger because of it when it's over. THIS is why people say marriage is hard. Well, one of the reasons. I realized the other day that all the crap I went though in my past relationships was nothing compared to this. THIS is real. THIS is hard. THIS is what puts callouses one your hands and bags under your eyes. I'm much stronger than I've ever given myself credit for, even thought I don't feel very strong right now. I made a promise to Ryan on our wedding day in my vows to "be strong for us, even when things seem too heavy." I'm testing that vow right now. Hello grey hairs.
My birthday is next Saturday. I'm having a small party to celebrate it. I'll be 29. The last year of my 20's. It's amazing how fast time has gone by. I still think back to my bartending days and it feels like it was just a few years ago.... it wasn't. I'm not too freaked out by the idea of being 29. 30, however, is pretty terrifying. Hopefully I'll handle that year with grace, but for now, I'm still in my 20's damnit.
I've also been taking art classes and have rekindled my love for creating with my hands.
It's a revitalizing activity. I once again, can only thank my husband for his never-faltering support and encouragement. He is the one that pushed me to do this and he sings my praises when I bring home a new piece. He acted like I just recreated The Lord's Supper with this last one. I really lucked out finding him. He's a gem.
I've also been playing in band! We had our first gig this weekend. It went decent... it could have been better. Needless to say, I have blisters on my blisters on my fingertips. Ouch! I deserve every second of pain though. I shouldn't have neglected my guitar playing like I have. This is what I get. My band members are incredible people with huge hearts and likeminded creativity. It's an honor and a blessing to play with them.
Once again, thank you for listening blog. You're always the best listener.
