Case of the blah's

I don't really have much to say. I feel completely empty. Drained. It was this weekend that did it to me. A weekend full of thinking "I know what's coming. Oh well, fuck it, let's pretend a little while longer." I watched this stupid movie about this chick who gets pregnant and her boyfriend is freaked out and treats her like crap for the first few months. She leaves him just in time for him to realize what a jerk he has been, blah blah blah everything turns out hunky dory. It made me realize that I've been lying to myself. I do not want children NOW, but yes, I do want them someday. I can't ignore that.He's way to selfish to be a dad.He's way to selfish to be a good boyfriend.We have fun together but that's where it stops.Another one bites the dust. Another brick in the wall. Whatever.