Fatty Fatty Two by Four

I feel like a cow today. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin for some reason. How is that I work out at least four, usually five days a week and still manage to get fatter? It's not like I'm sitting around all day just chowin' down on junk food. Sure, I eat carbs, I put a lot of sugar in my coffee, but c'mon! I'm 25 years old!

Anyway, I digress.

It's so cold here today and I can't stop wishing that I was somewhere else. Some place warm.

I supposed to have a girl date with Rachel tomorrow. Yes, blog, I will be eating a cheeseburger while I'm at Harry's. Don't judge me. God, you're so snoopy and intrusive sometimes it makes me sick.

I fell in love with Ryan a little more last night. I don't know why, exactly. Nothing specific happened to make me feel that way. Sometimes I just get this rush, this overwhelming rush of.....something. It hurts to not be touching his skin. I could lay in his arms and breathe him in all night long. He's such a good man....

Work sucks today. I'm unmotivated and would like to be at home with my dog, chain smoking and reading and falling asleep or something equally lazy.

Hang nail city!

I hate winter.

I love sleeping.

I miss my brother.

I wish my feet would stop hurting all the time.

There's something in my eye.

My cell phone is about to break. Time to get a new one.

I need more money.

I wish Ryan would be okay with dogs in his house.

My car is almost out of gas.

I'm really hungry right now.

My boss makes me sick sometimes.

Sometimes I make me sick.

I need to hit my quota this month and don't think I will.

Why is my check engine light blinking?

Oh hey, check out this really great quote, dear blog. Maybe it will inspire you as it did me:

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." Anais Nin

Natasha gave that one to me a while ago and I just found it yesterday in some old emails I was digging through. So true, so true.

That's all I have for you today blog. I'm feeling uninspired.